(see part 1 here)
as time went on, i got emails, texts, bbm’s, gchat messages asking where i be at and i explained what was going on. most were surprised/impressed. (as was i. lol). i did get the question a lot of what did my fast entail. and while my response in the beginning was everything – there was some doubts as different people define social media/networks as different things.
for me: twitter, facebook, instagram, tumblr – sites where i interact directly with people, sole purpose is for sharing randomness with no actual purpose. bbm/gchat/texting (TEXTING???) to me are not included as they are communication tools. i have conversations with people i actually know in the flesh (not THAT way). they are not publicly broadcast for sharing.
i will say that when i resurrected goodreads, it felt like cheating. it’s facebook/twitter for readers. you add friends. comment on books and are sharing what book you are reading, have just finished etc.. i hoped that i wasn’t replacing 1 social network with another. the other partial cheat was pinterest. oh pinterest. what a time-suck disguised as something else you are. i use my account for everything from event (business) to cooking (lots) to creating my dream home and wardrobe. other than sending some pins to people – it’s still a solitary function. but one you can get lost in for hours if you aren’t careful. if i were to ever do this again, pinterest would probably be included. if you feel like you are cheating…you probably are. (let that sink in for some of you…)
oddly enough, the social media fast extended beyond the networks. i stopped watching tv. i didn’t make a conscious effort to do so, i just remember 3 weeks going by and my friends asking me about scandal, and me realizing that i’ve missed 3 weeks of a show i used to have a twitter account solely devoted to. is part of the reason because live-tweeting is what makes watching certain things worthwhile? probably. not to say i can’t watch, but it’s funny how interactive everything has become. heck even READING is social now.
i was having a conversation with someone about travelling, and the joke was made that they wouldn’t want their plane to go missing. i asked, why would the plane go missing?
person: there’s a plane missing in malaysia right now
me: THERE’S A PLANE MISSING IN MALAYSIA??? WHAT!?!?! (i know, i know…)
one thing i can say about news and twitter, is that it may not always be right but it’s always first. and if you spend your commute time to work, idle moments at work, commute time home, decompress time before dinner, remixed decompress time after dinner, before you go to bed, while you are in bed pretending you are going to bed scrolling through your timeline, you are bound to see major news like that. i don’t drive, so there’s no radio. i don’t live at a major intersection or take the subways so no free metro paper for me. im not watching anything on tv other than treehouse – i had truly removed myself from the grid. maybe a little bit too much. but the noise reduction was so nice. i was being filled in on some twitter drama one day, glad i wasn’t a part of it and knew it adds nothing of value to my life to be.
in 40 days, i broke fast and looked at twitter once (i was forwarded the @steenfox sexual assault viral story and was so moved and broken hearted). i had to break the fast and post on facebook when my phone was stolen. i can say that i have always had immense respect for my Muslim friends who observe Ramadan because it requires so much faith, strength and discipline. especially during the long hot summer days – how can one not even think of drinking water until sunset? sheesh!!
speaking of water, the juice part was the hardest part of my fast. i thought, i’ll replace it with water. but we all know drinking water if it isn’t already a habit, isn’t an equal substitute that is the addition-inducing simply lemonade (with mango). i had bottles and jugs at work, in my purse, at home and would do well for a couple of days, or during the work day, but terrible on the weekends. after 1 particularly hard day, i deliberately broke fast and drank a glass of juice (i bought it because SLwM is expensive and it was on sale!!) – i immediately felt sick. i presume likely for 2 reasons:
1. that was sugar shock to my system
2. the emotional guilt/disappointment in myself i felt.
i definitely didn’t expect to feel that way, and knew that this was bigger than just giving up juice for 40 days. the juice fast was the one i broke the most, and always after receiving bad news. i didn’t want to eat my feelings and felt like i was being punished, so why bother? it took a lot of soul-searching, praying, conversation and tears to get to the other side of that.
the juice fast also meant i replaced my sugar intake with foods. i snacked and baked a heck of a lot more. i felt like i was never full. if i was doing the do..i would’ve thought my uterus was occupied again (ITS NOT). my body was just trying to get back to what it was used to getting by any means necessary. and here i thought it was going to kick off a weight loss for me. nope.
overall, this was a good thing. it was a challenging season (like winter was) – but i made it through the storm and now hope springs eternal. i’ve learned alot about myself, my friendships, what loyalty means, what trust means, what words mean, what faith means.
i’ve missed writing (i didn’t blog because SM’s are how my posts are shared/read) and interacting with people, but know i will come back to it differently. it won’t be a crutch anymore. that may be pathetic to some reading it – but it’s honest and is the truth. most people who think it’s easy either don’t know use the products to the same extent anyways or aren’t being real with themselves.
i received an offer to write for a website about of one my favourite things (the Philadelphia Eagles**). i turned it down for several good reasons such as not always having access to the games, but more importantly we say yes to too many things because it’s a good opportunity. but there’s a cost to all these yeses. what do you gain? what will you lose? what am i adding? do i want to be stressed by something i took on voluntarily and has deadlines and commitments? or do i want to be free to enjoy my NFL Sundays (when they come back) to do what i want (which may be go to brunch instead of watching the games?)?
if work/life balance is important, so is life/life balance. you direct it. to feel at peace in your body and spirit is so valuable.
thanks for the love, support and encouragement from my friends during this time of refocus and refreshment.
(now to catch up on scandal before i return so i dont get the spoilers!)
what’s your word? did you give anything up for lent? do you usually do so? what made you choose what you did? what were your challenges? if you blogged about it, drop the link like it’s hot!
*: i didn’t know that during Lent, you don’t fast on Sundays. which.. kinda makes sense!
**: i only found out about the team trading away one of its best assets because my phone was stolen. God knew i probably would have thrown and broken the old one…smh.
ps: funny how i did do a social media fast (practice) many moons ago.
pps: looking for images for these posts and came across this. i HEARTEDLY chucked.